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So it's been a few days I just haven't felt like writing... a lot has gone on and I'm still not sure I feel like writing... but I am here.

Yesterday school started, I'm apprehensive about the semester, I think I may only try to take one class, my ASL one, the others I may hold off on... I think with him getting so nasty and the divorce and everything I just wont be able to put my all into my classes... and they were some tough ones... and I'd hate to not do well because of all of this.

I need my confidence back... I've been kicked down and told what I can't do so much over the past 4 years... I need to get back to who I was before him.

RULES TO LIVE BY FROM NOW ON

• finish school before I ever ever ever think of getting married again, this includes law school
• get a real job before I consider marriage again as well
• get MY life back and do with it EVERYTHING I wish to
• smile every day
• have fun every day
• work hard to achieve my goals
• work on my friendships, friends are important
• think positive, don't let him tear you down, he gets pleasure out of it... fucker