Stress Kills

I pushed myself into work this morning, even though I was supposed to be on bed rest... it was hard, I'm still a bit shaky, things are foggy, I'm itchy, and I feel as if I've been run over by a steam roller...

I went, it was miserable, but here I am, now in bed, laying down. NOT relaxed... why? well first off when you almost die, it makes you think a lot, about a lot of things... and... I get a call from HIM who is now sick, and called into work... fantastic... saying there is no heat at home... he had to call the oil/propane company and behold, in 5 weeks we are out of propane... 98 gallons, almost $400... how can that be? it's only used for heat, and we never turn it about 65... I don't get it... we haven't payed for it yet, well because we don't have the money...

We got 10 gallons today I guess, not sure what they charged for that, plus the house call... but this is crazy... personally I don't need heat, I'm fine bundling up, as long as I have electricity I'm good to go.

STRESS IS GOING TO KILL ME SOMEDAY, I WILL HAVE A HEART ATTACK!

I can't even sleep, I'm beyond exhausted... but now I've got too much on my plate... super... I need to win the lottery, which I'd have a chance at if I played. Or maybe enter some contests online for some getaways... anyone know of any? I need something to cheer me up... because right now... literally, everything just sucks. The only honest-to-goodness thing I can say, is that I made it through yesterday, and I lived to see another day... however it's another ugly, stressful day, and I'm wonderful when someone is going to knock on my door and take my house away...