Pain in the KNEE

So before the vicodine kicks in... if it does... I figured I would write something about my unproductive day. This morning I had such a hard time waking up, I was exhausted, but I didn't go to sleep till almost 2 last night, I just couldn't...

Work was fine, nothing special, short day due to class... I actually ate at school, I didn't feel well and thought it might help... and there is this sandwich I have them make into a salad for me, and it's always good... so I had that... I was full and feeling like crap then. I have been in so much pain with my knee all day, and I keep feeling like my leg is on fire in random places.. I'm not sure why, I have never had this sensation before... it makes me want to cry... at our second break I attempted to leave without the professor noticing, but I could hardly walk, so she saw me sitting in the hall...

She offered ice, and to arrange for my leg to be up in class, but I felt so ill from the pain I needed out of there, I was overheating and felt trapped, and the burning in my leg, as it is now was so intense.... I felt bad. She was worried about me driving, as was I, it's not my driving leg, and thank goodness I don't drive a standard... driving still was painful having my leg the way it sits in my car.

As soon as I got home I took one vicodine, I can take 1-2, I took another not long ago, because after 40 min of nothing, I was told by my nurse friend to take the other... gosh this burning is bad, pain.. burning.. shit... I may not even get up for dinner tonight... glad I ate today!

I am going to the orthopedic in the morning, at least I can now say the pain is consistant and doesn't go away, but on the other hand... THE PAIN WONT GO AWAY AND IT'S GETTING WORSE! Lame... this blows..

I am still planning on going to Pebody tomorrow night... we are just going to dinner as far as I know, then hanging out for a while... Sat night I think the bar will be ok, I will just sit there, and if I need to put my leg up on another chair I will, and if I need to leave, well then I will have to, but I AM going to meet my friend for 9 at least, and hopefully people wont get there too much after and I wont stay too late, this shit sucks...

I'm just nervous about needing another surgery as my insurance runs out the 2nd and i'm having issues getting on another plan... my parents are working on getting me back on theirs till i'm 26, which would give me just under 2 1/2 years... so cross your fingers... I need it by the 3rd! I can't not have it with my meds and such!!!


I am going to drink my tea and try to nap or something... I may write later..

xoxo
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